…but I didn’t!
The diet has not been going to plan. I hoped that by having my calorie intake on worldwide display I would somehow shame myself into sticking to it. But as anyone who actually bothered checking the Facebook page will know, it didn’t make a lot of difference. And in fact, far from losing weight I seem to have gained it!
I was considering giving up when I saw my weight on Monday morning. But while sitting on the sofa that night, feeling a little sorry for myself, I started thinking about why I was like this. What had led me to put the weight back on, how did I end up allowing my house (and my life in general) to become such a mess? I won’t bore you with all the details, but I have traced it back to the split with my ex-boyfriend last March. I really let myself go. And though I thought I was over him (even to the point that I started dating again) I now know I wasn’t.
I feel I am ready to start again with a fresh slate now I know the cause of it all.
On Tuesday morning when I got up I put on my exercise clothes and did 20 minutes of toning exercises, went for a bath, and went to work so happy that everyone though I was going on a date after work lol.
I have found a new resolve based on the simple fact that no man is worth wasting my life over! I am no man hater … far from it. But they are not worth moping around the house for. I was losing weight and feeling great before the split, my life was organised to the point where friends were often jealous of how organised I was … and I am going to get that back … for me! Everyone thinks when you start dieting it’s to make yourself look good for men (or women if that’s your preference), but I believe you can’t succeed at anything unless you are doing it for yourself. You won’t put 110% in to anything if it has no personal gain for you. In this case I will be giving the finger to all my ex-lovers, showing then what they can’t have … I will feel healthier … I will have more energy and feel more positive, which in turn will help get me organised again … and I will have a wider range of shopping options when looking for new clothes.
I am hopeful that next week will see a loss in weight and a rise in confidence!